Have you checked out tracklib.com? It's what I recommend to all my students for sampling. It's a huge catalog of vintage samples from major artists going back to the 50s and 60s, all pre-cleared. You might spend $50- $500 upfront to clear a sample and some percentage of your royalties, but worth it if your track ever blows up, you won't be dreading a lawsuit that will wipe away all your revenue. Source: about 1 year ago

For finding melodies tracklib.com has alot of old soul rap jazz electronic really any type of music to find samples. Source: over 1 year ago

All that said, tracklib.com is wonderful. Can't recommend it enough. Source: about 2 years ago

Keep in mind if you didn't pay for a license to use a sample from tracklib.com's library of pre-cleared samples (I don't think any other website is offering this) then you're unable to clear the sample as a producer because the artist you're sampling would need to hear the lyrical content of the finished song to make their decision/negotiate. Source: about 3 years ago

Sorry to hear this and good on you for posting and reaching out.. There has been some great advice already about counselling and journalling. Also, I recommend meditation (something I am trying to do more of, as my head is busy). This app is great - https://meditofoundation.org/medito-app. Source: 11 months ago

I would also suggest using a timer app like Medito which is completely free and try to start off with 5 to 10 minutes sessions as many days a week as you can. Source: about 1 year ago

There's a great (totally free) app, medito, which has lessons that I think are some of the best introduction to getting meaningful results from meditation. Source: over 1 year ago

Use the prayer time as mindfulness meditation. Here's a free one. Source: over 1 year ago

Feeling Good by David D Burns, Free meditation app,Paid meditation app,Vipassana on YouTube. Source: over 1 year ago